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hey everybody, how are you all? i hope this post finds everyone well. ship and his wife had the baby and dillon is doing well, thats awesome. its great to get good news for a change. all is well with my fam too. friends are all cool, which is nice. work is going reasonably well, and i ve made it through one of the holidays this year, i dont count halloween cause that one is fun. i genuinely like that holiday. the rest of them are just so tough to get through. its a little easier this year knowing im not the only one missing someone. my heart goes out, for someone to lose their mother has got to be the most difficult thing in the world, and has got to fill fill her with a deep hurt i can def imagine. i do know how she feels. my heart goes out to her, and maybe i can find a way to atleast help her through it, take her mind off of it for a short while, make her smile, something.
its sunday again, and its just a depressing day. its rained all day, nothing exciting happened, and basically i have been sitting here just thinking about everything and coming up with only sad thoughts, only memories of the past, and i cannot think of the future in anything but a forelorn way today for some reason. the mood of the day is sadness. with that said, i think its been ok today. its a day to reflect , relax and review the world and all that has happened, all the changed that have come to pass, all the people that have made an impact on my life. there are many and in many many ways, really its been a profound year. it has started to change me and shape me again in to another person than i was even at the beginning of this year. i like the changes that are taking place overall, we are all growing with time and becoming who we are meant to be. its the natural way of things. but days like this are special, because on days like today, you see the sad, and the tragic and you come to terms with it, and it makes you a stronger, deeper person. atleast i think so. i hope so. i hope that it was not all in vain, that it means something, that the scars bring character, that the pain brings wisdom and understanding, that the time that goes by makes the memories more and more treasured.
i would hope so. i would hope so. maybe thats the theme of the day, hope. maybe we are meant to see the hard things in our lives, and to find hope in the future, and maybe even in them. i dont have all the answers, im just a guy trying to make his way in the world, to find happiness in it, and to make as many people around me happy as i can. its a damn difficult thing to set out to do, knowing that you cannot make everyone happy, or be everything to everyone, but trying is a noble thing, and to be a great, and kind, and thoughtful friend, maybe husband someday, boyfriend rightnow to the people like my friends, to the girl in my life, to the people i see everyday and the people i meet in the course of an average day who i will never meet again. but to go on and be who we are, to do what we do, inspite of what ever is on our minds, i guess is what its all about, i guess its what today is about too. i dunno. im rambling. i feel like dawson trying to write joey a letter. i do. i just cant get my words to translate to the keyboard, and i just cant get it all typed out. it doesnt matter though. well everyone, im gonna sign off for the night. ive excercised my demons for now and my heart isnt really in writing any more. so anyhow, im signing off for a while. laters, everybody. stay safe, stay happy, treat each other good. you never know when you wont get another chance to say im sorry.
ev
hey everybody, how are you all? i hope this post finds everyone well. ship and his wife had the baby and dillon is doing well, thats awesome. its great to get good news for a change. all is well with my fam too. friends are all cool, which is nice. work is going reasonably well, and i ve made it through one of the holidays this year, i dont count halloween cause that one is fun. i genuinely like that holiday. the rest of them are just so tough to get through. its a little easier this year knowing im not the only one missing someone. my heart goes out, for someone to lose their mother has got to be the most difficult thing in the world, and has got to fill fill her with a deep hurt i can def imagine. i do know how she feels. my heart goes out to her, and maybe i can find a way to atleast help her through it, take her mind off of it for a short while, make her smile, something.
its sunday again, and its just a depressing day. its rained all day, nothing exciting happened, and basically i have been sitting here just thinking about everything and coming up with only sad thoughts, only memories of the past, and i cannot think of the future in anything but a forelorn way today for some reason. the mood of the day is sadness. with that said, i think its been ok today. its a day to reflect , relax and review the world and all that has happened, all the changed that have come to pass, all the people that have made an impact on my life. there are many and in many many ways, really its been a profound year. it has started to change me and shape me again in to another person than i was even at the beginning of this year. i like the changes that are taking place overall, we are all growing with time and becoming who we are meant to be. its the natural way of things. but days like this are special, because on days like today, you see the sad, and the tragic and you come to terms with it, and it makes you a stronger, deeper person. atleast i think so. i hope so. i hope that it was not all in vain, that it means something, that the scars bring character, that the pain brings wisdom and understanding, that the time that goes by makes the memories more and more treasured.
i would hope so. i would hope so. maybe thats the theme of the day, hope. maybe we are meant to see the hard things in our lives, and to find hope in the future, and maybe even in them. i dont have all the answers, im just a guy trying to make his way in the world, to find happiness in it, and to make as many people around me happy as i can. its a damn difficult thing to set out to do, knowing that you cannot make everyone happy, or be everything to everyone, but trying is a noble thing, and to be a great, and kind, and thoughtful friend, maybe husband someday, boyfriend rightnow to the people like my friends, to the girl in my life, to the people i see everyday and the people i meet in the course of an average day who i will never meet again. but to go on and be who we are, to do what we do, inspite of what ever is on our minds, i guess is what its all about, i guess its what today is about too. i dunno. im rambling. i feel like dawson trying to write joey a letter. i do. i just cant get my words to translate to the keyboard, and i just cant get it all typed out. it doesnt matter though. well everyone, im gonna sign off for the night. ive excercised my demons for now and my heart isnt really in writing any more. so anyhow, im signing off for a while. laters, everybody. stay safe, stay happy, treat each other good. you never know when you wont get another chance to say im sorry.
ev
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