interesting day.....

saw a good movie tonight. kinda strange that i would see it tonight. its been wierd like that. to be forthright, i havent seen this movie since the last time i was at a movie in bloomington normal. almost got to see it at a drive in theater, but i wasnt quite that lucky. besides, the last time i was actually at a drive in, well i didnt see a lot of the movie. you know, i still have absolutely NO IDEA what 'The Horse Whisperer' was about. yeah. no clue. missed the whole damn movie. not that i care much mind you.

somedays i feel like i am a life raft. i really do. i feel like i am here, i was put here, to help out as many people as i can. its the rare times when i get to help out someone who is special to me that i am thankful for that purpose. it would seem that a friend of mine is having a rough time of it, and i can only hope that shed let me try to help however i can. i will certainly do my best. much as she and i have been through, and its been a lot, i still care more than i know how to say. we go way way back, and thats hard to turn away from.

in other news, i still am thinking a lot about sarah. the disappointment i feel is pretty deep. i feel like the unluckiest guy in the entire world. i do. but there is another girl whos kinda dropping hints at me, and i do like her too, so i dunno what to make of it or what will come of it but i am certainly going to see what the future shall bring me. god only knows what is to come, what will pass for me or for any of us. none of us is a fortune teller, and any man who tells you he can predict the future is a liar.

still need to get on finding a roomate too. that is getting critical. especially since i am finally getting financially viable again. finally.

anyhow, i have a shitload of paperwork to do so im gonna sign off and bite the bullet. i guess. i fucking hate paperwork. i hate it.

ev